I’ve been in my head a lot lately. I see so many things on the news and in my day to day life that make me cringe. I often wonder where the world went wrong…why is there so much hate? Lately, I’ve seen so many debates again on the place of LGBT people in our society and arguments about how Christianity is so against us. I see hateful things slung around like “God didn’t make them that way” and “God can forgive their sins if they just ask for it” and things that suggest we are a lesser breed, a sinful calloused organization with an agenda. I can’t for the life of me understand how people can not see that they may be wrong in this area. These are the people who say they’ve studied the Bible and the Bible proves this “lifestyle” is wrong and sinful. But what they don’t seem to understand and will never hear is that the Bible never mentions homosexuality as we know it today. The word, when used in the Bible is translated from a root word that is talking about older men using younger men sexually for power. The word does not mean the homosexual monogamous relationships we know today. But, these people won’t seem to hear it. They say we’re sinning and being deceived. If that’s the case, didn’t Christ come to fulfill the law that was previously set forth in the old testament? Did He not die on the cross to save us from our sins, past, present, and future? If that’s the case, does sin even exist? I mean, if he took all of our sins and forgave them then sin would no longer exist. Unless maybe His sacrifice wasn’t big enough or strong enough. But, this is the God they serve. They seem to think that, if it’s a sin, God wasn’t and isn’t big enough to forgive it and surely he didn’t already forgive it at the cross. They seem to think that it’s a greater sin because we are living in it daily. But, I can’t seem to understand the concept of sin and how it is still even an issue when he said it was finished on the cross. If my God isn’t big enough to forgive sin when he said he did then I don’t want to serve him. If homosexuality is a sin, then it was forgiven and his grace covers everything. However, I do not believe it is a sin (if sin even exists). I believe that God is a god of love according to his life and teachings in the Bible. If that is the case, then how can love, the very thing he stood for, be wrong? And if it’s wrong, how come there are so many people who are still gay despite prayer and repentance and trying to change who they are…? Maybe it’s because they’re not supposed to change and deny a very real part of themselves. Maybe it’s because being LGBT is not a sin, an illness, an abomination. Maybe, just maybe, hatred is the bigger issue here…or maybe ignorance…or maybe the fact that people take what they’re taught at face value without doing the research because they don’t feel they have to since it doesn’t affect them.
I’m tired of this. I’m tired of it all. The abuse, the hatred, the word slinging and Bible quoting (and those who worship the Bible more than learning from the life Christ embodied). Why can’t we all just get along? Why can’t we live in peace and harmony and love others despite our differences.
And then you have those LGBT folks who lash out at Christians saying they’re all horrible and judging and biggots. That is not true either. There are plenty of folks out there who are Christians and truly love others whether they agree or not, whether they are not sure about us or not, they choose love over all else. We as LGBT people can’t lash out at them and call them names because then we’re doing exactly what we’re asking them not to do.
Be careful how you approach these people because so many of you are stooping to their level and showing the same hate you say you hate…and you’re showing them the same lack of acceptance you’re shown.
I hate it. I hate all of it. The pure hate and intolerance from both sides of the coin. It’s wrong and has to stop.
I often feel things very deeply and get so emotionally invested. I wish I didn’t, but I do and it’s painful to see what’s happening in our country. Put an end to the hatred and violence…it starts with you and me. We can’t fix it all, but we don’t have to perpetuate it. If we lash out like they do then we’ll always be the bad guy and then they can say the category they place us in is true and valid and I don’t want to be a part of that.
Be safe out there. The world is a fucking shit show.